Am I still loving you?

Now the rhythm is gone and music is all lost
Feels like a Christmas eve with neither bells nor frost
But I find myself hoping the days ahead brings life anew
Am i still waiting for you?


No this waiting is still not enough
As if the journey wasn't already too rough
The pain in my heart ain't nothing compared to you
Am i still living a lie for you?


In a crowd of loneliness and a sea of tears
Engulfed in pretensions and consequences of fears
No way out of this demise, these endless days of blue
Am I still crying my eyes for you?


Mumbling in my dreams, screaming your name
Too tired to decide wherein lies the blame
The battle never stopped, the wounds they forever grew
Am i still willing to die for you?


Every certainty shred, my consciousness baffled
Mind in a void, my body paralyzed and thoughts so mangled
Whatever may I pretend otherwise, still not over you
Am I still loving you?


Can't be with, but can't live without you
Am I still loving you?