Wednesday, September 13, 2017

An Accidental Realization

I never credit myself to be highly intellectual or being blessed with abundant maturity; however I always knew that I have a gift to absorb, to understand, to appreciate and to accept. Yes, that's what makes me feel good about myself, to never be judgemental.... to never have an absolute sense of wrong and right but to accommodate for the greys and the other shades in life.... in myself or in others.

I have known people throughout my life,..oh I love them,... meeting new faces in new places,... in some of the most unassuming and unpredictable circumstances... chanced encounters, a beautiful opportunity to know someone new,..a stranger. Its like being presented with a small window.... and its upto me to open it to let the breeze of a new life come in.... and in some cases of certain no-no's (here i refer to the polluted air and hot smoke) its again upto me to keep that window closed,..or better latch the bolt tighter and use a lock :P. 

More importantly... I always believe in the greatest gift by God - this life, an opportunity to know, to try, to do whatever you want,. to go wherever you to want to go, to see this world for all its heavenly beauty- divinity in nature, diversity in its creatures, to feel humility in the vastness and the variety of mother earth, to hear the sounds of life, to be blessed with near and dear ones- who care and whom you can care about... isn't all this simply fantabulously miraculously wonderfully amazing! 

But many a times, more often than not...all of us get happily lost in our own constrained and limited worlds... our homes...our jobs...our salaries...our goals & targets,...our friends & families...our infatuations & dreams....just a limited cozy cocoon of self-absorption and self-comfort "Our" world. We don't have the time nor the inclination to stop by and see something more than we want to, hear something that is not important or entertaining to us or do something apart from the mundane chores beyond our immediate self-interest or preferred comfort zones. In short we become trapped in our self-created world.... and need a reminder or a remembrance which can pull us out of it for a while... show us something which is beyond our needs and make our hearts to appreciate and understand things that are new... to look beyond "US".

I got my reminder a few days back when I met a new person. She seemed just the average next door girl at first sight,...loves to sleep once back from office...quite honest and frank (more than average people) one who doesn't feels embarrassed to admit her lack of finances, one who doesn't shy away from accepting frankly the male attention she received & expression the desires she feels to have a special someone in her life... in short an average, simple, fun-loving, happy-go-lucky, most fascinatingly normal girl with not a single care in her life- how lucky!. Just that yesterday night I found out that this lucky carefree girl was not forever so,..she had a chronic case of blood cancer as a child and had multiple blood transfusions over her life time and two major bone marrow surgeries over a period of several years to get cured of this malignant ailment....thank goodness! To think of the fact that this happy-go-lucky sweet girl standing next to me has suffered years of pain and torture facing her own death and defeated it,..is doing well for herself & her family filled me with a sense of respect & admiration for her....a true warrior!

Everything said and done,.... the point i want to convey is that is important to take some time and smell the flowers....to know people...there is so much to learn from everything and everyone. Not every smiling face is always happy, neither is every tear a declaration of final defeat. Each one of us has something unique to learn and appreciate....it is only upto us to open our eyes and hearts to them.


A toast to such people around us!

The Elements

Fire
I desire the passion to try things new
the zeal to make impossibles come true
the energy to force obstacles melt through
A power and rigour to chase my dreams

Air
I desire the agility to keep proceeding
the speed and force to stop at nothing
the freshness which makes life worth living
An enthusiasm to challenge supremes

Earth
I desire the strength nowhere else to be found
the patience to do things profound
the humility which can keep me ground
A tolerance to pursue extremes

Water
I desire the continuity to stay in the game
the life and miracle to prevent being insane
the depth and heights to lead the path to fame
A purity which cleanses human sins


I desire all these and even more
to get ahead in the race and win for sure
break away the chains of doubts and chores
to cherish the gift of "life" like never before



To desires never ending

Dream Again

It is never too late to let go
It is never too hard to change and redo
What we wronged some long time ago
Could stand upright once again

Beyond all that is lost and forgone
Stand the precious lessons we learn
It is not enough to look back and only yearn
There is strength behind every pain

Our hearts are what we all must follow
Everything against it is fake and hollow
Stretch to the depths and forget the shallow
Hold on! there will be rain

Hopes are all gonna come true
Lest we behold our good virtue
In drops of the first morning dew
Sow the tiny seeds of your grain

Nothing we hoped is forever gone
No need to cry, don't be forlorn
To be or not to be- that's where we are torn
Believe in youself to seek pleasure insane

Dream again
Be free again
Try again
Be "you" again

I love walking in the rain....

I love walking in the rain
so that no one can see me cry
long have I sufferred intolerable pain
I swear I can never deny
how can I still be living and sane
when long ago my heart did die?


I love shivering in the snow
so that no one can hear the sobs i hold
the joy which lied far away to follow
for momentary laughter an eternal smile i sold
scared in the realms of a life so hollow
why is it best to leave some tales untold?


I love staying in the woods alone
so that no one beckons me back to the crowd
wanna run far away into depths unknown
someplace where I can scream aloud
beyond all measures my pain has grown
why does my love still stands so proud?


I love working through the day and night
so that no one can guess the reason true
within this very heart a battle I fight
I live and I die each day anew
Oh Lord! Beholder of all light
why the days when I lived, were ever so few?



Why??

Mother Nature

Did u?


Did u ever try listening to birds?
ever wondered what they sing, their words?
to me they speak of the wind and the sky
they urge me to spread my wings and fly
they fill my heart with joy of their song
i feel so light and i feel so young


Did u ever try smelling the flowers?
ever wondered where from they get their colours?
to me they smell like the effervescent musk
in a short lived life from dawn to dusk
they fill my life with sweetness so kind
it rejuvinates my body, refreshes my mind


Did u ever try looking at the sea?
ever wondered how vast it would be?
thousands of treasures that it holds inside
the plethora humbles me, sublimes my pride
forever so constant, never ending and more
like the waves forever beating at the shore


Did u ever try climbing the mountains?
ever wondered where from comes the fountains?
the wild, the woods and the rocks so strong
sheltering the animals and the bird among
so high, so proud, so majestic, so tall
a wise old sage, a learned know-it-all


Everything in nature teaches something new
no matter how small, never mind how few
the sun, the wind, the land, the stream
bestows us all with virtues supreme
my heart filled with mirth and merit
touched by the creator's divine spirit



Cheers

From this moment on

From this moment on
There will be no place to belong
Destiny lies ahead so long


From this moment on 
I must proceed, I must move on
Coz my journey has only begun


I need to travel to the end of all roads
To seek thy heavenly abode
I need to cross all rivers and streams
Need to rise above all earthly screams
Doubts and fears now fog my mind
Need to break free, leave all that behind
The path I go, can carry no burden
No anger, no greed, they are all forbidden

From this moment on
There will be no place to belong
Destiny lies ahead so long



All that I learned, all that I have known
The very seeds, from which I have grown
Gotta get over all that's said and done
Gotta cut my roots, I gotta go alone
Nothing more to see, nothing else to speak
Nothing more to hear, nothing else to seek
I can't give up, I can't be tired
This is all that I ever desired

From this moment on
There will be no place to belong
Destiny lies ahead so long



With all my courage, I gotta beat defeat
No matter how harsh and rough, the fates treat
I need to brave my way to a long distance
Can't settle for a path of least resistance
I carry nothing, but still not empty handed
Need nothing, when all your wishes are to be granted
No thoughts to ponder, no time to track
For some farewells, there aint no turning back

From this moment on
There will be no place to belong
Destiny lies ahead so long



The place I go, there aint no friend or foe
Only hopes in heart and dreams to know
Long have I suffered, long have I been scared
Long have I tried, so long I prepared
Fruitless are vows that you never follow
Can no longer lead a life so shallow
But still it is never too late to start
I got nothing more than the faith in my heart

From this moment on
There will be no place to belong
Destiny lies ahead so long

From this moment on 
I must proceed, I must move on
Coz my journey has only begun

Descant

There is a new delight in my flavor of life these days
I am waiting for my incumbent dreams to take flight these days
I kinda feel butterflies at times in a very weird way
There is a certain portion of me behaving as a child these days!

My lips sing on their own accord in so many poetic ways
My feet start tapping to an unknown music in so many graceful ways
My eyes are full with hopes I was scared to dream until yesterday
My heart is painted in beautiful colours in so many indulgent ways!



Is this a dream to be broken with the slightest touch of reality?
Is this a trance to be shaken off as soon as reason breach this tranquility?
I am scared to let go this hope, this urge & I fail to reason why!
All I wanna do is engulf myself in the brightest realms of possibility

Dreams are meant to be broken, and so do everybody preach
Trances are supposed to be shaken, like all wise men teach
But my hope it seems, has got a heart and a mind of its own
Can't be restrained by impossibilities, no matter what logic beseech!

There is a new delight in my flavor of life these days
I am waiting for my incumbent dreams to take flight these days
I kinda feel butterflies at times in a very weird way
There is a certain portion of me behaving as a child these days!



God if this feeling can last, please make this last forever
If this is what i have been waiting for, don't let it be over
Can't believe its been inside so long, unpronounced & docile
I hope it stays with me, completes me, and may it leave me never

I will never know what lies in future for me to go ahead
But i know that tomorrow is for sure and the past is so dead
Thousands of desires in my mind just waiting to unleash
Isn't it better to rejoice this life, rather than crib instead? 

There is a new delight in my flavor of life these days
I am waiting for my incumbent dreams to take flight these days
I kinda feel butterflies at times in a very weird way
There is a certain portion of me behaving as a child these days!



My spirit sweetly sings in a new rhythm, unheard before
& my mind visualizes beauty of a unearthly kind, unseen before
I sense an energy which keeps pushing me to test extremes
and a vigor to chase the desires, i failed to notice before

Its a mirage I am chasing, don't know if it's water ahead of me..
Its a game I am playing, gambling with fate to uncover a part of me..
But I don't mind losing, if I can live this life dictating my terms
B'coz I would know whatever I chose, it will be an expression of me!



There is a new delight in my flavor of life these days
I am waiting for my incumbent dreams to take flight these days
I kinda feel butterflies at times in a very weird way
There is a certain portion of me behaving as a child these days!

My lips sing on their own accord in so many poetic ways
My feet start tapping to an unknown music in so many graceful ways
My eyes are full with hopes i was scared to dream until yesterday
My heart is painted in beautiful colours in so many indulgent ways!




To life and more......