Rain!!!

There is rain in my eyes……

Never dripping, though the droplets are many

Never pouring, though a stream flows within

Never stopping, as if they refuses to run dry

Never holding, threatening to commit the sin

There is rain in my eyes….

Drenching the pleasant dreams they hold

Drowning the hopes they weave so fine

Blinding from the sleep they crave to find

Blurring the lines of distances and time

There is rain in my eyes…..

Confounding their distant vision, near sight

Hurting them with a non-gratifying, inane pain

Trying to steal away sweet air, humble earth, warm sun  

Driving to lose themselves and my faith again!

There is rain in my eyes….

Can it pull them into shadows of regret?

Can it grow beyond the depths they surmise?

Can it snatch away those passionate dreams?

Can it beat them into obtuse oblivion & irreversible demise?

Yeah, there is rain in my eyes….

But they won’t fail to bade the dark waters beside

Won’t give up fighting the merciless downpour

Won’t let the droplets sink my heart and my pride

Won’t shy away from challenging the heavens some more!

 

 

~Fighting the waters

CHAOS

Such an intense order of insanity
A myth, a whirlwind...a complete loss of parity
Throwing cautions at the winds...I plunge in for the dive
Closing my mind, locking my heart....trying to survive

Such an utter lack of clarity
A dizzy haze.... an uneven cloud of disparity
Taking a leap of faith....I rush in to the divide
Praying with all my hope and love....wanting to staying alive

Its a familiar anguish... a certain loss of self
And all you can think about is getting some help
And then you start sensing an eminent fall
Its a chaos.. chaos after all


A freaking mind gone all wrong
A mindless banter...all heated up and strong
Breaking the chains of restraint... running for life
Fighting love, hurting immense... heading for the final drive

A deepest urge for me to belong
An impossible wish... carrying my hopes along
Spinning thoughts and fear...seeking confidence to imbibe
Burdened with emotions, seeking solace...so difficult to contrive

Its a painful ballad....an incurable unease
And all you can care for is finding some peace
And then you start sensing an eminent fall
Its a chaos... chaos after all


~To the chaotic world around us!

SHE

She stands in solstice
The beautiful woman
Burning like a candle flame in the crux of the darkest night

She moves in solitude
The lonely woman
Slicing through the frozen earth on a landscape so white

Is she a goddess or an angel who lost her path to paradise?
Is she a lady of the forest or an enchanted princess in disguise?

Poised on the horizon,.. calling onto the sun
Stretching on the meadows... whispering to the wind
Humming prayers surround her aura... gathering charm
Besotted petals trailing her path... scattering scent

She is the only woman
Her power within beckons to call
Lovely and shining, the stunning woman
Burning like a candle flame in the crux of the darkest night



She walks on water
The mysterious woman
A white swan floating on golden waves, shimmering threads of light

She breathes the wind
The wandering woman
Carrying as a breeze into far distant caves, beyond every sound or sight

Is she a saint, or an elf from another realm?
Is she an immortal fairy or an imaginary dream?

Raised over the pedestal... singing a soulful song
Gliding endless beauty... breaking in a heavenly dance
Luminous diamonds shows her eyes... illuminating all
Ensnaring musk fills her being... effervescent touch

She is the only woman
Her soul within endearing to call
Gentle and pure, the heart of a woman
A white swan floating on golden waves, shimmering threads of light



To the woman in us

The Darkness I feel inside

Arousing me, tearing me open wide
It is the darkness i feel inside
Confusing and confounding, leading to misguide
It is the darkness I feel inside

Tempting and alluring
Calling me into the endless night
Sightless and silent
Reckoning to trap without giving a chance to fight
Colder than ice and slier than disguise
I can sense the scarlet glow in thy eye
Sharper than the blade, mercilessly strong
Threatening to pounce in the blink of an eye

Following me unawares, fruitlessly I hide
It is the darkness I feel inside


Vivid and attractive
An aroma, my darkest desires unfolds
Innocent yet seductive
Clueless about the fate for me it holds
From the depths of the forest soil
And the soft whispers of the passing wind
From the smell of burning wood
And the waters from the flowing brook

Creeping through a shape, like a shadow I glide
It is the darkness I feel inside


Seamless and surrounded
Feel its presence wherever may I run
Mesmerized and astounded
I stand transfixed, hypnotized by the demon

Hands of greed and taste of lust
Amber of anger reflected in thy soul
Beautiful and strong the stranger descends
Shattering to pieces, never again to be whole

It breathes through my ears and I helplessly abide
It is the darkness I feel inside


Constant and never-ending
A sin, a falsified myth come true
Seeping and defiling
A liquid poison happening to engulf you
Cornered in dismay, hungry and cold
Forced to give up to cajoling and deceiving lies
A tiger's growl and a snake's slither
Forbidden help, I listen as my heart cries 

A familiar ghost within my mind difficult to be espied
It is the darkness I feel inside


Arousing me, tearing me open wide
It is the darkness i feel inside
Tempting me, strong as the highest tide
It is the darkness i feel inside
Bewitching me, snatching remnants of every pride
It is the darkness i feel inside
Violating me, against death and decay I collide
It is the darkness i feel inside

Confusing and confounding, leading to misguide
It is the darkness I feel inside

Am I still loving you?

Now the rhythm is gone and music is all lost
Feels like a Christmas eve with neither bells nor frost
But I find myself hoping the days ahead brings life anew
Am i still waiting for you?


No this waiting is still not enough
As if the journey wasn't already too rough
The pain in my heart ain't nothing compared to you
Am i still living a lie for you?


In a crowd of loneliness and a sea of tears
Engulfed in pretensions and consequences of fears
No way out of this demise, these endless days of blue
Am I still crying my eyes for you?


Mumbling in my dreams, screaming your name
Too tired to decide wherein lies the blame
The battle never stopped, the wounds they forever grew
Am i still willing to die for you?


Every certainty shred, my consciousness baffled
Mind in a void, my body paralyzed and thoughts so mangled
Whatever may I pretend otherwise, still not over you
Am I still loving you?


Can't be with, but can't live without you
Am I still loving you?

My Holy cup of Sin!

There I go raising a toast to my holy cup of sin
There it shows rising above facades, moving against thick & thin
I push through the act, enacting this life scene by scene
shadowing the guilt burden, suppressing the antagonist within

For each lamenting overtone
For each serenading pretense
For each deceived semblance
For each feigned charade

There I go raising a toast to my holy cup of sin
There it shows rising above facades, moving against thick & thin



Flying on borrowed wings
thankless and shameless, I fly so high
Playing games with fate
soulless and spiritless, I pride my wins

I know its all lies
I know it hides a few cries
Oh! I must repent, should be sorry for things I've done
Oh! I must be bold, to accept the wrongs hidden too long

But there I go once again being selfish and mean
There the lies rest again, camouflaged so beautifully white & clean
There I go raising a toast to my holy cup of sin
There it shows rising above facades, moving against thick & thin



Running after obsessive dreams
breathless and lifeless, I fail to realize
Sailing through the shores
clueless and aimless, I fight against the winds

I know its all so vain
I know its just madness insane
Oh! I must stop, before its too late to repair
Oh! I must confess, mouth an apologetic prayer

But there I go hiding behind a pretentious grin
There goes all morality, failing to penetrate this impervious skin
There I go raising a toast to my holy cup of sin
There it shows rising above facades, moving against thick & thin



To the sinner in each of us

Every Teardrop is a waterfall

Its not a scar you can caress and cajole
I see my life spinning in a black hole
Still trying to hold on, nevertheless I will fall
Every teardrop is a waterfall


I have shut the insane world outside
Shun away love, life, misery and pride
Still trying to forget, nevertheless I do recall
Every teardrop is a waterfall


Caught in a gap between two trapeze
Stuck in the black, no feel of a breeze
Still trying to hide, nevertheless visible to all
Every teardrop is a waterfall


I cast away all that I carry and wear
Beneath my smile the hollowness to bare
Still trying to change, nevertheless hurdles so tall
Every teardrop is a waterfall


Lost in thoughts and lost in time
Never understanding how fates intertwine
Still trying to entangle, nevertheless its a free fall
Every teardrop is a waterfall


Broken and burnt, helpless and hurt
Picking the ashes for residues from the start
Still trying to grow up, nevertheless I feel so small
Every teardrop is a waterfall


Hatred and anger, despair and pain
Screaming in the misery of hopelessness again
Trying to be silent, nevertheless I speak up to call
Every teardrop is a waterfall


With eyes bleeding, ready to sink and drown
Punishing my heart, want it to break down
Trying to stand up, nevertheless I can hardly crawl
Every teardrop is a waterfall